All About Us- He Is We

Someday Im going to have to have that love that I've always wanted. All the nights I spend laying awake at night and all the time I spend thinking up these scenario's of the perfect moment can not be in vain. I want to go dancing with someone I love, have a song that will be "our song", sit around just being together, and making plans for the future. Im only 16 years old which makes my dreams so distant, other teenagers do not think like this at all. All we do is damage each other, for no reason at all. A friend once told me that my problem is that I want to grow up and settle down right now, I just want to fall in love once and stay in love. At this age most people have a new love once a week and we're told that we do not even know what love is. Im not totally sure if this is true, I've only been in love once, which did not work out to my disappointment. The fact that I might not even know if that was real love does not make the situation better, infact it makes it almost more sad. I just want someone to look at me like Im exactly what they need, to want me for me, flaws and all. The concept of love is so flawed when you really think about it, but nothing sounds more perfect to me.

I've been wondering if I've been seeming deseperate or obsessive with the subject matter of my posts, so I thought that I would just point out the fact that Im definitely neither of the two. This blog is geared towards my views on the challenges of looking for love as a teen. There is obviously more to my life, like my family and friends, but my passion is writing about love. I just wanted to clear that up. I hope you enjoyed this entry.

-M.

Sun and Stars- Victory Sweet Victory

The one thing about moving on is the fact that I cant help but always compare every guy I see to my previous boyfriend. No two people are exactly the same and when something ends you want things to go back to being the same and if they cant you find someone to be a replacement. The problem with using someone as a replacement is that your feeling's aren't real, which isn't fair for yourself or the person your with. The thing that needs to be realised is that you and your previous partner did not work out for a reason so going out and finding someone similar to them in the long run is a bad idea. Its a vicious cycle that is very hard to break. Even sitting here writing this I find myself thinking about the past and how I would give anything to have that back, but not all of that relationship was good and its hard to see that when you can only focus on the parts that make you ache to have back. The first part of putting your life back together is moving on and just accepting the fact that things wont be the same. They might be better or they might get worse, but that risk is so worth it, in my opinion.

Just a little something I wrote up while on an extremely long car ride. Its been bugging me for a while, the thought of getting back out there and scared that I wont find anyone who will measure up to the last.

-M.